Fri, 12 Aug 2011 10:52:38 -0500WeeblySun, 06 Mar 2011 03:00:00 -0500http://www.winklemusic.com/1/post/2011/03/things-time-has-taught-me.htmlThis will be  a growing list as time goes along:

- Time may not heal all wounds, but it definitely makes them hurt less.
- True friends are those who can go through the good, the bad and the ugly and then years later, still be your friend.
- All musicians, even the really great ones, have insecurities.
- I’m not as good as I thought, but I’m also not as bad (creatively speaking).
- No matter how hard I try, I will always be that dorky kid inside.
- The rhyme “Sticks and stone may break my bones, but words will never hurt me” is a flat out lie. Words hurt.
- Think before you speak.
- Our parents really did know what they were talking about.
- Slow down.
- Spell check is a life saver.

]]>Mon, 30 Aug 2010 03:00:00 -0500http://www.winklemusic.com/1/post/2010/08/insecurities.htmlI got ‘em and I hate ‘em … it’s like having a bad disease! 

I’ve quoted an Alanis Morissette tune before … every time I feel insecure, the song won’t leave my mind! I love how she writes; her lyrics are so clever. So, I quote:

“Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly 
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood 
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could 

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me 
One forgotten birthday I’m all but cooked 
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily 
I’m 13 again am I 13 for good? 

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful 
So unloved for someone so fine 
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting 
So ignorant for someone of sound mind 

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me 
One forgotten phone call and I’m deflated 
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me 
Your hand pulling away and I’m devastated 

When will you stop leaving baby? 
When will I stop deserting baby? 
When will I start staying with myself? 

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me 
I jump my ship as I take it personally 
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly 
The moment I decide not to abandon me ”

This song is so true!  It’s funny how I freak myself out over every little thing.  It drives me absolutely crazy! lol … and yet, God still puts up with me.  He still sends me little encouragers along the way.  You’d think He would finally just say PULEEZE! But no … He is that reassuring Father whispering in our ears … I just love Him!

So, I’ll keep fighting this nasty disease … I’m sure I’ll cry somewhere down the road when someone says something, looks at me weird, or just ignores me … but for tonight, I’ll laugh at myself and shake my head … and say thanks to God for yet again speaking words wisdom … let it be!

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